damn her.

damn.
quarrelled with my mom and now i cant go ice skating.
she's just so unreasonable.
my dad tried to tickle me and i made alot of noise
and she asked me to shut. up. out of NO where.
and said that my voice is irritating.
menopause.
at first, she said that if i want to go for ice skating,
she wants to FOLLOW me inside.
with my friends.
ok, in the end i decided, follow all you WANT,
i can just IGNORE you.
and before she said that i cannot go cos "she dowan to accompany me",
she wanted to go to the ice skating rink tomorrow
and look at the environment.
what crap.
i only have one word for all these.
stupid.
plainly and simply stupid.
thought i din say that aloud,
i realli feel like shouting it.
my parents said that the ice skating rink is "dangerous".
note that i said ice skating RINK. and their reason is so stupid that i cant be bothered to type it down.
pls. im FIFTEEN.
stop treating me like a kid.
previously there had always been heated arguments between me and my mom
because she always don allow me to go out with my friends for NO reason,
especially after my njc results come out,
and till now i oso dunno why but she kept on saying that
they are "sun you".
now everything is gone and the problem lies with ME.
everywhere i go,
have to get pass her temperamental-mood-related-decisions.
its hard for me to go out with my cgs friends.
though, i still do, i do not tell her.
it's like locking myself in my own cage.
i've tried going to the ice skating rink ONCE
with my friends
AND. nothing happened.
all these unnecessary fret and worries are completely ridiculous.
if she knows how to reflect on what's wrong,
she will find out that all these things happen because of HER.
if both of us compromise, make an agreement,
i will do what she wants me to do and
she will let me do what i want do.
but now all she wants me to do is listen to her,
get cooped up at home all day long,
the longer the better, just like her,
do homework and read newspapers everyday.
let me just elaborate on what i mean by "cooped at home".
my mom rarely goes out.
she only goes out to go ntuc and market[which is 10 minutes away from my house]
and after that, she will just come home and lock herself inside.
plus she only goes to ntuc and market at most once a week.
which means that she goes out once a week.
maybe she can be a second-degree hermit.
now you get my point.
the only thing that ever stops me meeting with my friends is HER.
she doesn't like the idea,
or she just doesnt want me to get out of the house,
she'll just say no.
her attitude.
her unreasonable way of thinking.
her temperamental mood swings.
my dad always listen to her
and my sis sometimes like to "attack" me too and sides with my mom.
and that SUCKS.
everything is just so unfair.
now, i cant be bothered.
since she doesnt respect me,
what do u think abt me?

i cant imagine what will happen during the june hols.
maybe she will want to follow me when i go to the library with my friend.

all because of you i always keep making empty promises.
and after that i have to face all the blame and frustration.

i'm sorry for making yet another empty promise.
again.
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