D:
i'm feeling a little down now...
today during CAAl mrs tan was talking about how about cip is and everything, which brings me to think about nowadays results arent everything. you are easily find people on the streets who has straight As on their result slips. therefore, as mentioned in GS, people are now moving on to looking at their CCA, leadership positions, and other non-academic stuff.
sucks! 'cos so far, i dont have any leadership position, and neither do i have any achievements...
everyone around me seems to have smthg they are good in, like french, art, dance, language, maths and sciences, shooting, german...
everyone just has something that can be a kao4 shan1 for future applications for jobs or whatever.
D:
and as for me, all i have is a normal "Member" in my CCA, and my results are not the top either.
D:
and i haven't done cip for ages!
hahahaha.
ohwells... i know the kind of life i'm having now is also a result of my actions/character.
i don't take chances when they come by, and usually let people take them. as time goes by, i find myself growing LAZY, instead of not daring to take the chance.
):
and THIS IS BAD!!!!
and because of THIS... i've achieved nothing, and i receive very little respect from some people too...
hahahaha.
ohwells...
this is not something i should sit back relax, and watch the show kinda thing also, lol, so i guess i need to try and engage myself in activities.
instead of just sitting there stoning everyday, focusing on school life only.
hahahaha.
yep(:
but. WHERE DO I START?
lol. hahahahaha.

oh heck, lets talk about something happier!
i think i'm going back to taiwan for 10 days in june (:
not v long, not too short either, but this trip is not meant to be a holiday for me, more like going back to visit my grandpa, and HELP HIM CLEAN THE HOUSE.
HAHA. his 5 storey house, which is collecting dust and a nice place for spider webs to accumulate from third floor and beyond, needs alot of maintenance, and my mom is going back to visit him, at the same time clean the house.
-.-
am i digging my own grave?
ahahahaha. i go there, there will be NO internet connection, NO computer, 14 BORING old tv channels, NO shopping mall nearby (only a bookshop, as far as i know)...
how am i gonna survive?!?!?!?!
oh dear... haha. but i take it more like a break from everything now, just go back, spend some time with my grandpa, less distractions anyway, so i can study abit oso (HAVE too anyway, ass week starts when sch reopens lol), and WHO DOESNT WANT TO GO OVERSEAS WHEN THEY CAN?
HAHA. yeahhhhhhhhhh.
but i THINK near his house got... internet cafe or those kinda places... hopefully i can go there or know how to use their services there, a super sua gu person like me.
hahahaha. go there like blind mosquito liddat.
but i dunno whether my mom will let me out of the house alone.
heh. okae. not confirmed yet, but the date is set at 8/6 to 18/6.
okaeeeeeeee. smthg to be happy about? S:
dunno. hahahah. i think i'll be super sian, and i'm abit scared of his house too.
hahahah. 'cos its OLD... and DARK... and not v populated... just like an old house will look like.
hahahaha.
okae. time to go do homework! (: