Another rebellious stage.

Now feeling abit moody.
Studies vs. CCA Competition.
If you were in my shoes what would you do?!
Todae i went to tell annoying azlin tt i cannot go for the cheerleading competition this sat
cos i need to go for njc IP.
and guess what.
She expects me to choose to go for the COMPETITION rather than the Personality test.
grrrrrr. hello? -knocks. [i sound realli ap here. haha]
i was in such a difficult position tt i din noe what to do.
But the answer was q evident tt no matter what happens,
i will eventually go for the test.
Even if i give in and go for the competition,
will my parents let?
i told azlin the exactly the same words.
and all i got is "i don like ur attitude".
ok maybe my attitude is lousy
because i find you unreasonable.
The fact is that you are asking me to give up my IP and go for a competition
so far i only noe tt among those in my cheerleading team,
only qi wei encouraged me to go for IP.
others [i shall not say in case im mistaken].... i think they are pointing fingers at me
and i reckon they think im irresponsible.
maybe its my fault tt i have to leave behind NINE [as azlin had emphasized on]
pple for the competition.
but what do u suggest i do den?
its not my fault tt i gt into the IP.
i din expect tt i will get this far too.
but still, how can one lose an opportunity like this?
nvm.
im tired. i spent alot of time thinking abt this and
now i would rather not think abt ur negative feelings towards me.
but anw.
since im gonna make such a sacrifice for IP,
i will try my best to get in.
BUT. i don think i will lahhs.
haha. ok.
take care!
and pls don blame me for what i have decided.
if u do, i cant help it too.