NEW BLOG!

I'VE HAD ENOUGH!

MY NEW BLOG


HAHA.

it's been close to 3 years.. and this blog itself has a special reason for its existence BUT i'm gonna change the add. haha. but that doesnt mean i'll delete this! shall archive it in my new blog :)

CYA THERE!

ahhhhhhhhhh... holiday officialy starts NOW! which means i have to start studying D:

but mentally im so messed up and there seem to be so many things which i dont understand about myself now... HAHA. dunno why i have weird feelings about some people.. i feel irritated towards many pple unreasonably and im quite puzzled over that fact.

i've been unconsciously thinking about alot of stuff like how i treat people and what kind of feelings are reflected behind their reactions, trying to figure out the logic behind some of my weird thinking feelings and actions hahaha.

am i irritating sometimes? or am i hypocritical in a sense? S: or am i caring too much about how i affect people around me? hahahaha. argh i dunno what im thinking also.

HMMMMMMMMMMMM. menopausal behaviour? might be the post-effect of the pills.. HAHAHAHAH.

ohwells. okie time to try and start on my bio... revision. haha.
HAPPY HAPPY. come on ITS BIO! :D

okay. sorry for such a lousy template suddenly!
i realized my old template is really CRAMPED and you cannot really read my super long new blog entry properly and even the default blogger templates cannot CONTAIN THE PHOTOBUCKET PHOTOS! LOL. they are.. TOO BIG!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i really dunno what to do. and i cant enter blogskins.com lol.
so yeah this is really the most convenient template to use for the time being as much as i hate it.

:D

shall find a better template or change all the photo size D: which is uber mah fan, soon.

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

okay. time to get back to blogging! i never blog seriously for so long. but so many things happened in my life recently, really.

OVERSEAS TRIP @ STONG!

i koped pictures from the oac album heh.

DAY 1.

tanjong pagar railway station.
took train!
GOT BUNK. TOTALLY COOL. q comfy (really, as compared to how we got back.. which i'll elaborate later :D)



waiting and waiting. i spent my time eating and talking mostly hahahahahah.



ON THE TRAIN! BUNKS! it became like some gambling den at night lah! there were 4 to 5 groups of people playing cards from bridge to urh "dai di". i was anti-social. din feel like playing cards so i "attempted to sleep". HAHA. and i found out that both me and jillian were pretending to sleep when they tried to wake us up to play cards also HAHAHHAHAA ffffffffffuuhhh-neeeeee.



the guys were all at the bottom and the girls took the bunks on top (cos they say ltr on at night someone come and find us HAHAHAHA).
this is.. ME!!! :D me and my bunk. yay!



random picture. haha on a side note, the train passed by jillian's condo and then jillian saw her brother playing basketball HAHA so cutely convenient.



at night. train was shaaakieee.



spastic jillian who slept opposite me (and conveniently threw things at me when she wanted to go to the toilet HAHAHA)

OH. YOU KNOW! THE TOILET! everything that comes out of you goes down the track. and on the way back, jessie said the toilet was clogged up, and RED. HAHA. and nearly overflowing. if the train were to jerk, it will go allllllll over jessie HAHAHA. of course... it din. haha.



CLAIRE SENIOR! HAHA. the poor person who is like severely self-injured now (from all the falls)



after 13 hours, we reached dabong!!! look at the mist in the background!



the pee/other things marinated track. and shu wei and claire, of course. haha!

after breakfast, we started our trip by hiking up a waterfall. A REAL ONE. like seriously make our way up it.



TADA! u see the right side arh.. the steep slope there, we went up that way. it was really.. one wrong step you will slide or fall and drop into the waters and get washed down haha. this was where i asked myself WHY AM I HERE!!! I'M GONNA DIE!!! HAHAHAHAH. but fortunately, that was the only time :D

it was really a tedious journey... everyone had bagpacks, and many with bags 10 kg or more like me with 3+ litres of water. and you have to overcome gravity and keep hiking upwards, climbing and going up in large steps.



top of the waterfall!!! but still a long way from our campsite...



we've reached our campsite! or near.. we have to cross this everytime to want to get out of our campsite -.= its even more dangerous the other side hahahaha which is not in the photo.

we pitched out tents and went to hike up to the summit!!!



and we cldnt reach the summit in time... cos we were too slow. it was really hard lah. hours and hours and hours of climbing up muddy or rocky slopes!



another picture.

we went back down without reaching the summit ): if only the day was longer then we cld have reached it (if we insisted on going to the summit it wld reach out campsite at 10 plus, cook and eat dinner and sleep at 12 lol and wake up at 6). it was more of a matter of safety so i also thought that we should return to our campsite earlier haha.

DAY 2!



SUNRISE... not. HAHA. well.. suppose to have but it was SO cloudy and misty in the area that the sun was sorta beside the clouds and everyone just sat there and slacked.

i din sleep much in the night.. as usual in camps HAHA. and in the morning like 5+ or earlier the guys from the tent next to us started gossipping about some stuff hahahaha better not mention here in case all of us end up in someone's blackmark list... but anyway, it was super loud and clear and it woke us up hahahaha and we just HAD to listen hahaha cos there was nothing else to do anyway.



okay brighter! the weather is really good here though. like cooling! no mosquitoes at all (or rather, none stung me cos amanda kept saying she got mosquito bites and showed them to me haha). really nice. don even need insect repellant actually.



you drop down from here you will go to the end of no where! hahaha.



and all of us just sat there.



okay finally, THE SUN!!!!!!! THEEEEEEEE SUNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!! HAHA.



we had to get across all these large rocks to get to our campsite. SO FUN!!! HAHA.



our campsite. first time nj oac camped with tents. HAHA. i think we are all becoming more and more civilised, in a way. 60% of the stuff in the store i dunno what are they doing there hahahah (likes axes and some weird stuff).



we drank water collected from the runnning water from the waterfalls, with aquatabs, which make them taste like swimming pool water :D withouth the aquatabs the water tasted which nice actually, yellow colour but sweet HAHA.



dah-dum. one of the places we collected out water from i guess.



and slacking on rocks is a hobby at stong.



happyyyyyy!



charmaine has the totally all nature look. i can imagine her living happily in a jungle and saying life rocks hahaha.



see see! HAHA.



okay group 1 slacking hahaha. the water is super cold and chilling. even after i brought some water back from ms, like at least 18 hours after it was collected, it was still uber cold when i poured it out in the sink.
sadddd don have pictures of my group ):

my group had quite serious people... we have three old aunties who are contented just by sitting at a nice corner and stone, namely jessie, jillian and kaiting. and we have a young unsettled member who always visits the ip tent haha namely amanda. and we have two very serious guys called chi cheng and yi neng who stone quite alot... HAHAHAHA. and we have our group leader daryl who i personally find him funny, responsible and nice hahahaha. last of all, wai kit! (no comments HAHAHAHHAA)

the second day we went caving luhh... me jillian and wai kit stuck together like glue cos we were seriously SCARED to death at the thought of leeches sucking our blood hahahaha. it was quite funny. i had to make a few KUNGGGGGG FUUUUUUUUUUU moves man hahahahha cos there were some steps whereby i reach down my leg cannot touch the bottom... luckily my track pants never split HAHAHAHA. next time must buy dance pants i think.

mud din matter in life at this point of time, whereby your shoes are already muddy, weird black stuff clung on to your palms too, and what matters is that you cling ont to anything that supports you and slide down mud if you have to.

but i loved it, really! it was tiring but now i think about it, i really loved the kinda freestyle climbing and clambering up natural rocks and stuff.

oh yeah, in the end all of us din get bitten by a leech. but we have daryl who got a leech bite at his ARMPIT (super memorable i think.. first leech bite at ur arm pit HAHA, and before the hike i was still thinking i wld rather the leech bite my armpit then anywhere above my thigh below my waist... HAHA), and sue-ann who had TWO, one at the back and one the top of her thigh which she discovered while bathing and left behind the half-fat leech in the cubicle.

TALKING ABOUT BATHING.
we went back to dabong train station at the end of the day, and there was FLIES everywhere. 2-3 cm big flies which are attracted to light.. terence had the honour of being the first to experience flies getting stuck to his body while bathing (cos it was wet) and asking pple (obviously guys) to help him pluck them off HAHAHAH. super funny.

by the time me jillian and jessie decided to bathe, there werent much flies actually (somehow all the flies disappeared after 8.30pm LOL). but the girls' toilet was DARRRRRRRRRRRK!

and this is what happened...

well, cositwasdarkandtherewasonlyoneworkableshoweringcubicle,jilliantookthatandtherestofushadtomakedowiththeotherthreewherebytwohadonlytapsandbucketsandonewithnowateratall.therewasaleechinthelastone(sue-ann'shalf-fatleech)andiwassoscaredthatijustkepthoppingonthesamespotinmyundergarments(itwasdarkandwewerehelpingeachotherholdourstuffyouseeandthemostconvenientbutopenmethodistostripandbathesinceallofusaregirlsanyway)andmskhoowalkedpastandshesawmeandshesaid,"whatareyoudoingbimbo?"butthatwasnttheworstcosafterthatihadtomovetoanothercubiclecosthatonewastotallyoutofwaterandihadtoletlightinsomehowrightsothedoorwasopenandjilliansawmybuttandlaughedatit.itwasquiteafunnyexperience,butsuppperrrrrrrrembarassingsincetherguys'toiletisjustonewallbesideyouandthetopwastotallyopenandtheyheardeverything,stufflike,"i'mnakedokay!donlook!","iseeyourbutt!","okayimlikestarknakedandimcomingoutnow","okayyoucancomeoutnowipromiseiwontlookandimnicelycoveredinaclothsoitsokay".accordingtotheguysitwastotallyverballyexplicit.

that's about it!HAHAHAHAH. let's forget about the past shall we? let's not think about it openly but remember it secretly. HAHAHAHA.

ALAS! our trip back was quite jialat.. cos we sorta gao wu long and then got a ride back on the 31ST instead of 30TH at 9.30pm, so that means we have an extra empty day at dabong. then the teachers tried super super super hard and got us on the train we wanted to be on, but we had no bunks, no seats, and had to fill up the junctions in between all the carriages, get seats when they are empty, and get shooed away at some stations if they are someone else's seat. it was really.. like some refugee HAHA. and the passengers on the train (all malays), some looked at us in disapproval cos we kept shuffling up and down the aisle and sitting down and putting luggage, when all of them are trying to sleep, and on top of them we are the most revealing people on the train (girls in super short fbts LOL), whereby the rest of the women revealed only their face and feet and hands -.=



we were like.. this.



this!



and this.. haha i think this is outside the toilet. HAHAHA. actually its not that bad cos alot got seats eventually and only some pple had to keep shuffling about for the 12 hour trip haha until we reach johor bahru whereby many pple alighted.



looking at this pic.. well not we arent that depressed at all actually hahah it was just tiring but quite an experienced. i know some pple played cards hahahaha.

towards the morning, benedict, yineng, chicheng, wai kit, me, jillian and jessie all cramped up at the end of the train (which served as one of the junctions initially but got cut off since its the end of the train i think), something like this:



HAHA. but 2 hours before johor bahru.. everyone had seats!



i really slept that time, and woke up time to time feeling really BLLLLLLLLLARRRRRH cos i din sleep throughout the night much hahahaha.

oh, this is a really random video taken at the highest point we went on stong, and you can tell how crazy our tour guide is. HAHAHAHHA. he's called batman. . .



AND THAT CALLS THE END OF OUR TRIP!!! HAHAHAHA. it think this trip really bonded all of us hahahah and everyone enjoyed it lah, its really out of the world kind despite all the obstacles we've been through (not being able to reach the summit, raining when caving, not finishing the third cave, not being able to get back to singapore ahems NORMALLY.)

loved it :)

i think our batch this year is smaller, but more bonded than the last batch... last batch was quite clique-ish but this year's batch is a anytime anywhere kinda social interaction. recently got closer some in oac and i really love how they made life in oac more fun! :)

looking forward to what the next batch brings, and hoping that the current batch and make sure of this holidays to have fun! :D






TODAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY. (after so long i finally got back to reality HAHAHAHA)

lets see. claire, claire, me, wai kit, ben hong, kah han, and phong went to spend out ben and jerry's vouchers which we won from icac as group number 1 in speed and number HAHAHA. first time there. cool man. lovely and sinful. hahahaha.

partially we wanted today cos it was ben hong's birthday also, 1st june! so ben's bd @ ben & jerry's! so cool right. i was saying if i had twin boys ill name them ben and jerry. SO CUTE. HAHAHHAHAA. then must have proper family planning, make sure i give birth to them around the date of anniversary liddat i don need to pay for it when we celebrate it at ben and jerry's HAHAHAHAHHAA..

i think they will hate me.
stupid mom, they'll say. BUT OHWELLS. LIFE'S FUNNNNNNNNNNN HOHO!

well after that everyone left, and four of us claire me wai kit and ben hong went to play pool at meridien!! claire din know how to play at all... it was v funny HAHAHAHAH. lets not talk about all her misconceptions... but she was quite good for a first-timer leh!! seriously. i cldnt even hit the WHITE ball straight for my first time, and it kept jumping!!

it was fun :D looking forward for more of these kinda outings with oac pple.
HEEEEEEEEEEE (:









BYEBYE. IM GONNA SLEEP. ONLY SLEPT 14 HOURS AFTER MY TRIP. STILL TIRED.
tml i have to go for bio study session with ms tay in the afternoon in sch. BOOHOO. but its good. can force me to START studying. i think im already behind time. DANG!








(:

lots of things that happened, lots of things i realized about people and myself, and lots of new-found things which i realize that i should appreciate more about.

(:

ROOOOOOOOOOOOAR IRRITATING. SO ANAL. AHHHHHHHHHH. DISGUSTING PIG. EEEEEEEEEW. YUCK. ROAQRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!
SIDKJVCWERN
OIWHJNEDQ
hqjwbdjhqwbdjhwb dhbqjhdbq fwdiyugefjuwqef qiwgfewjusbfcjsbdvcjnasbevuwyegvjbwaejhcbwajehfcajhdbcjdwcgvjdvbhjwdbcjsdvbcuqgbcvjwhebcjhwdbcjhdwqbcjwqbqjdbcqejdvbqjhedvbjuewdbcvjuwbcjwndskqjewoifjhrgfureplaamzkjsndijcqhjdfvbewhjrbgjuerbg3rvf.

so weird. SO ANAL. SO WEIRD. SO SO SO WEIRD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SUCH A SIMPLE THING ALSO MUST MAKE IT SO COMPLICATED. DISGUSTING PIG.
WHY MUST YOU _____________________!?!?!?!?!?!? WHY! WHY!?!?!?! CANNOT FIND A BETTER PLACE ARH??? HUR????????????????????

TSK.

okay. just rantings before my malaysia trip. i'm feeling all fired up now for some reason. my mom is being so naggy.

and its so tiring trying to accomodate to pple all the time.
GIVES ME A HEADACHE. LIKE NOW.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

okay. byebye darlings i'm off to malaysia :)

smiles :)

LALA! whoa. damn tired physically now. haha.
today me and my dad cleaned the whole entire house. my dad only mopped the firt level, but i swept and dry mopped both levels plus mopped the second level. on top of that, i had to do all the random pre-mopping things like shifting furniture around to make it easier to clean the place.

CAN YOU BELIEVE IT! hahaha. for a moment i was thinking, maybe i should just find a nice guy to marry and just become a good housewife. succumb to the conventional women stereotype BAHHHHHHX. hahaha.

tired. haha. yesterday went out to shop with jh, and bought a pair of shoes yay (:



holidays are here! but im like not feeling any less stress than before hols. there's so little time now! and i haven started on my revision. haha. this sucks. exams after holidays... cannot enjoy siiiiiiiiiiigh.





it's time to change my lifestyle, my attitude, and my everything :)
time to pick up all the weights dragging me down and move forward together with them :)

one fine hot night (just as it is nowadays), daniel was ironing his uniform. it was hot. he sweated. and using his hand, he wiped sweat off his forehead, together with the iron.

daniel ironed his forehead.
HAHAHAHAHA.

super hilarious!



i think age 17 is a very obcure, ambiguous year for me. i really have nothing to say. life's a straight line. with super frequent mood swings. and piling up of work. lagging behind in work. shall update more about my daily routines next time.

i'm surprised that some pple still visit my dead blog. so here i am!

v lazy to update much today. got like GP VA and GPP to rush -.=
disgusting Gs. hahahahah.

mata.

i'm back (:

LIFE IS SO FUN NOW. HAHA.
even though lessons are boring, and concepts are just piling up, but out of all these there's always so many many things that really make me smile.

first of all, the highlight of the day is, CLASS CIP!
NTUC CHILDCARE CENTRE AT CLEMENTI BRANCH.
since last week, a group of brave young teenagers will trample their way through clementi to find this ulu NTUC childcare centre,
having to have gotten lost for the first time (and stopped to eat along the way HAHA),
and having to be drenched in the rain on our way there with three pathetic pple under one super big-not umbrella (the weather makes me wanna pee).

after braving through an amusing journey in the search of the centre, the grp of brave young teenagers find themselves dealing with kids that like to
1. cling on to you
2. slap your butt
3. run all around
4. try to attract your attention by doing alot of things
5. talk about "blowing those with bird birds" for blow-wind-blow-game (kids nowadays, tsk)
6. make u feel sad when they suddenly just leave you for another jiejie or gorgor who seemed more interesting D:

its been two sessions, and the grp of brave young teenagers always find themselves physically tired with hoarse voices after each session.
but, it was superrr entertaining and enriching!
and, 17 year old kaiting found a 6 year old kaiting! :D HAHA!

i love thursdays (:

on the other hand, i'm now currently attending the leadership symposium thingo, which means i can miss lessons! it was q... greek to me, but to compensate that, they really fed us like piggies.
we had tea break in the morning, lunch, and afternoon tea. ALL catered food. HAHA.
and after stuffing our mouths full, all contented participants will stroll back to LT1 and plonk their butts down again to let fats accumulate and freeze due to the air con.
this leadership symposium thing had allowed me to yet again step out of my comfort zone and try and solve business problems with a group of strangers, but at the same time made me realize i reeelly cannot do business LOL.

other than that, life's alright! but i think i need to re-structure my life again for the near future. first is academics, second is OAC, third is attitude, fourth is spiritual development.
i cannot just float through the calendar without knowing my goals in life anymore.

and, sometimes gossips are just so resistably tempting to know and talk about, but i think i have had enough of them and can't be bothered already. for all i know, maybe one day things will rebounce back to me and hurt me (i'm not implying anything specifically though haha)

okay. i'm super lazy to do PI today (and someone was talking about re-structuring her life HUR).
shall bathe (she stinks), and maybe turn in earlier for the night today :D

i'm really lazy these two days. i'm really really really lazy nowadays!
to the extent that i'm too lazy to talk much, i'm too lazy to move much, i'm too lazy to care about anything other than academics now LOL.
i find it an enjoyment to sleep, a pleasure to do tutorials, and a relaxation to just be antisocial.


(maybe its the weather)


WHAT'S THIS!!!
maybe i hyper too much for the start of 2008 le lol.

okay. now i'm lazy to type. HAHAHAHA.
oops. maybe ill try to find the blogging spirit back during the hols.

I REALLY CAN'T WAIT FOR HOLS.

保持微笑

保持微笑



又一个朋友被伤了心
她哽咽着问我哪里才有爱情
心疼的把她搂在怀里
说不哭不哭我却先红了眼睛

失恋在这城市里到处横行
天使又一再失约从来没降临

让我们保持微笑
给寂寞的人一些依靠
我们要保持微笑
给孤单的人一种心情的拥抱

又一个朋友计划远行
他剪短了头发说要遗忘过去
听着他故作洒脱语气
我知道他去的地方叫做逃避

紫藤花

紫滕花

花缠绕的神情
悬秘
你像蒸发的背影
我垂坠的心情
摇曳
不出声音
精彩没结局的戏
我们像不像电影
当看着我的人都散去
我才看见我自己

紫藤花
迎风心事日升夜降
越想逞强去开了
笑声就越哑
紫藤花
把心栓在旋转木马
能愿意不再喧哗
还念念不忘旧情话

最爱美的人
最难忘记
因为还留下梦境
最浪漫的人
最难清醒
不信谁无情
假如能像风和雨
一次又疏离又亲密
不问你不说的秘密
快乐会不会延续

紫藤花
迎风心事日升夜降
越想逞强去开了
笑声就越哑
紫藤花
把心栓在旋转木马
能愿意不再喧哗
还念念不忘旧情话

爱情在这么的故事别离
而是感动的回忆
让人很容易
站在原地
以为还回的去

紫藤花
迎风心事日升夜降
越想逞强去开了
笑声就越哑
紫藤花
把心栓在旋转木马
能愿意不再喧哗
还念念不忘
紫藤花
迎风心事日升夜降
越想逞强去开了
笑声就越哑
紫藤花
把心栓在旋转木马
能愿意不再喧哗
还念念不忘旧情话
……




random song (:
just feeling mentally and spiritually content for the moment, and this song just feels soothing HAHA!

my life's on page 17 now currently.
a page full of smudged ink, poisonous ink.

gossips are full of personal opinions.
and when they get passed around, somehow
they become FACTS.

poisonous.
POISONOUS.
POISONOUS!!!

my mind's a blank, with pieces of random ideas swimming around, like rubbish in the greentea and milo flavoured canal.

i'm starting to feel disgusted by myself. and wonder how did i get myself into this position today. with THESE kinda problems.



time to lock kaiting up in a box.
byebye.

there are a few points i would like to highlight in my life now.

1. my sister just had an outburst over how my parents didn't let her jion anything in sec 4 and jc, and even forced her to quit her exco position in sec 4 because "it's O levels".

my dad cornered me in the kitchen just now (okay fine, he just talked to me HAHA) to ask me whether they are really such hateful parents, or maybe the fact that did we ever think about appreciating their efforts for raise us up for 17 years, or for 23 years.

i felt slightly guilty after that for not doing so, and being blinded by my own selfish ambitions. but come to think about it, they ARE a little restrictive.
darn, if only i'm good in MI/KI. perhaps i can reason out my feelings more logically.

2. i think i'm drifting away from my own class. starting from orientation, to class dinner, to now. maybe i hang around with OG13 too much? but i dont really see them often either.

but yes, i've decided to hang around with 06IP04 as much as possible.
(:

3. oh i've went through a y = cosx journey again for my considerations for joining council.

in the end i decided not to join. number 1 was the time schedule, its really scary haha. im thinking i don think i can kope with it. number 2 is my parents. they too, think i'm STILL too busy.
hahahaha.

so i shall be a normal civilian in the city of national junior college. i hope i can go for mount kinabalu trip, i hope i can go for china immersion programme. but i feel abit shameless to ask my parents in future, cos i know at every single request i ask my parents, my sis's heart will twist and feel jealous.

just like just now, she was comparing me and her. i feel lucky that i'm able to have so many more opportunities than her time, but i feel sad for her as well.






on a brighter note.
I CANT' WAIT FOR CNY!
CANT WAIT TO SLEEP.
CANT WAIT TO SLACK.
YAY!
but i told myself that im gonna start studying seriously this hols.. its CA str after that! ROAR!

tml got steamboat dinner. yum.
just now my sis opened the fridge in the dark dark kitchen, and she cldnt see anything, cos the light was blocked by all the food stored in the fridge for tml's dinner.
HAHA!


okay. tired. tml got night hike briefing. and my throat feels funny, think im gonna have a sore throat throughout cny ):

OH MANS!

Why do you have to celebrate your birthday with so many people? If they celebrate your birthday for you, that means they expect you to celebrate their birthdays. And that's a complete waste of time.

In future, you are NOT allowed to tell me that you want to go out and celebrate your friend's birthday.

 

You cannot go for anything other than school related activities.

no chalets,no competitions, no outings with friends or classmates or schoolmates, no participation in unnecessary activities, no participation in new ccas/events.

i don't understand why do you involve yourself so much in all these (pointless) activities.

Every single day you reach home at or after 7pm, and on weekends you go out.

Do you even remember what did you do for the past few weeks?

What office apprenticeship? Can you ask your teacher whether you can withdraw from office apprenticeship?

You are not WORKING. You are a STUDENT. Students are suppose to study.

Can you quit photog? When will your CCA activities stop coming up?

You are J1 now, you should get ready for your A levels. Stop getting so involved in so many activities.

 

 

Who is your form teacher now? I want to speak to her, I want to understand what's going on and ask them whether your schedule is NORMAL for a student.

oooooooo, my dear little cousin's voice broke!

oh my god, he's growing up already!
he's 15 this year, but he's still so puny!!!
(and oh my, I'M 17!!! i feel so DARN OLD!)

suddenly had a warm feeling, and i suddenly felt like going back to taiwan.. to visit my cousin!
he's the only cousin i'm close to in a way, and the only cousin i really missed when i left taiwan ):

initially i thought this year i don wanna go back to taiwan (after last year's trip..), but now i feel like going back ):

came back home, and saw my mom having a vid call with my aunt on my com! hahaha. so yeah, heard derrick's voice HAHA.
"whoa, you very man now neh!"

and i think my aunt grew fatter. (she covered the cam after i asked her whether she grew fatter HAHA)




sometimes, maybe there are still things in my life which i forgot to cherish.

Let Y be Kaiting's mood nowadays.

Y = 1000.cos(1000x)

Duration of Y: can be within 1 minute, can be within 1 hour, can be within 1 day, can be within 1 week.

it's my own roller coaster ride which i'm taking.





:}

im feeling dull..
boredom's starting to get in,
the feeling of tension when i feel so blur in lessons,
the stagnant silences with people,
the feeling of being neither here nor there,
the lasting effects of procrastination.

why is happiness always so shortlived, haha.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, TO MEEEEEEEE :)

yay! i feel like the luckiest girl on earth *cliche cliche cliche* but i'm serious (: pple say ur birthday is the sweetest when its SIXTEENTH, and this year is my SEVENTEENTH, but i feel like im 16! hahahaha. still dont feel 17 YET..

okay.
school's just normal, etc etc.

friday 25th january
i went out with jing huai! (: we dropped by west mall on the way to jp and saw hui ping, and i really can tell the difference between rich pple (AC) and 平民百姓 (like me).

hui ping: "what are u guys doing here!"
me and jh: "well.. we are just looking around.. looking for bags?"
hui ping: "huh? shopping for bags? why here and not orchard?"

DOT CUBE! gosh. another walking branded advertisements on the streets HAHA! sighs. okay, lets not talk about wealth status.

anyway, west mall got nothing at all luh.. we went jp, and walked around, and i chose a wallet i like(: (but it was out of stock, TOO MANY PPLE LIKE IT TOO D:)
jing huai, you really put in alot of effort on my birthday, thank you so much!
cheers to our friendship (:
i promise you i'll make this year a better one for you (: HEH!

saturday 26th january!!!

YEAH MAN, this, is the very day, of the holy birth of a significant human being on earth.
HAHA.

okay. this holy human being went escape with her holy friends (now you wont roll ur eyes already right? cos i let u be holy too! HAHA!), and also some of her holy OG pple [at first it was suppose to be OG13 outing, but everyone cldnt make it other than caleb, yan xiang, looney and sherman (foo)].

ESCAPE WAS FUN! (: i seriously took all the scariest rides luh.. like, the inverter, which goes 360 degrees around, and will halt when its upside down up there in the air, and you will feel ur blood rush to ur brain. i think i talked alot throughout the whole ride.

"i can smeeeeeeeeeee-eeeeellllll my shaaaaa-ammpoo!"
"OH MY GOOOOOOOD!"
"AHHHHHHH CRAZY!"
"building a family..." (school song)
"standing with colours blazing.." (school song)
"hey you agorix fans, let u hear u clap ur hands!" (house cheer)
"now that u've got the beat, let me see u stamp ur feet!" (house cheer)

and we went twice! HAHA.

HAUNTED HOUSE was HILARIOUS. 7 of us clogged up the entrance of the haunted house hahahaha cos WE DIDNT DARE TO WALK ON. HAHA! all 7 of us were seriously like gripping the person in front of us, and in one CLUMP, not one row, super funny! yan xiang like shouted and cursed and every single thingie that pops out, and charlyn had her eyes closed throughout, and ama wasnt scared cos she walked through it before (but she still doesnt wanna be the last), and caleb was super noisy cos he was the last one (quoted, "AHHH I'M THE LAST, AHH! I'M SCARED!!! I'M THE LAST I'M THE LAST!").

hahahahaha. i officially give way to sherman and let him take away my best friend (yan xiang) to be his gay partner (: all the best yan xiang and sherman! :D

dinner was at macs.
aw, overall today was really a super memorable day!
my holy friends were really sweet, i had to blow unlit candles though, cos they didnt have candles BUT ITS ALRIGHT (:
and they tricked me into playing double dare, and i had to close my eyes, they faked putting chilli or whatever on my face, but it was actually a necklace which yan xiang wanted to give me!
super duper nice(:

i noticed, people really like to give me presents in bits and pieces. HAHA!
kaiting's present part 1(a), (b), (c). lol.
okie, moving on!

sunday 27th january!

today was a not bad day! i celebrated my first day of being 17 with my jelly fish stung friend, rozelle! HAHA.

we went sentosa, initially wanted to go canoe! in the end.. 8 bucks for half an hour.. blurgh so we went to take the luge, and the chairlift ride (: i nearly lost my slipper. HAHA. and rozelle was super paranoid over everything on the chairlift,

"i wonder how the rope holds us.. it's like so.. thin"
"i dont think the netting below has any use"
"if i fall, maybe the trees can catch us, or i can grab onto the tree"

OR smthg similar to the above hahahahah!

the luge was q fun, with small kids like zooming past me, i was behind this kid, so i cldnt go all the way to the max ): but its okay! hahahaha. better than the last one, whereby i got stuck at the end, where they allow us to get off our little luges.

i realized hor, sentosa is unsuitable for two people to go, it must be a group outing then fun. haha! its quite a family place too. so thats why we changed our plans and went vivo to watch movie!

we watched... The Mist -.=
it was my first time which i made a decision to watch smthg NC16 and gory, and scary, but it turned out okay, just a few parts i was quite freaked, and 90% of the whole movie i had either the popcorn box or my hands to cover 60% of my face.

ITS A CRAPPY SHOW.
TOTALLY.
watch it. its really really worth its crappiness.
HAHA!

rozelle tried to trick me saying it's a comedy show, but YEAH i agree now it IS a comedy show.
it's a JOKE! HAHA!
so yeah. WATCH IT. ITS FUNNY.
:D

watched an ice hockey match at jurong east after that, there wasnt enough time to play pool ):

and that ends my first day of being 17!
(:




THANK YOU
KOMBAWAAAA
KONICHIWAAA
ARIGATOOO
(:
i think i really need to make a list of who gave me presents and stuff. i feel sinful and shameless as well, accepting so many gifts! hahaha, so i MUST rmb to let them have an enjoyable birthday as well, like me! (hope i'll have the time >.<)





okay kaiting! you are 17 now... you've really played alot since the holidays, its time to take your life seriously!
stop stoning in lessons
stop using msn so much
stop being involved in so many activities (if you can help it HAHA)
stop procrastinating
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i think i'm becoming more and more superficial, like when the kaiting i present everyday is the kind of person you can have fun with, but not the kind of person who is serious.. which links together with many other stuff like reliability (this is personal perception though) .. etc.
my social circle had really widened ALOT since being an OGL, and when your attention needs to be split up in all areas of your life, you tend to pay lesser attention to each individual area... which is BAD, and i dont like it at all, just like how i dont like pple treating me without sincerity too..

you have a long way to go.. and alot of things to change about urself! (:
and which kinda stuff needs to be changed will remain in my pea brain (: secretive secrets.
haha!

thats all for today! super long nv blog...
shall try and blog more in future.
but i dont have any pictures, so i know my posts are q boring, even for me. haha!

going on to day 2 of my 17 year old life!

when everything seems perfect,
i'll start to worry about how it would become imperfect.

P.S. i walked to school from bukit batok today :)

me and ama stopped at kap, and took a bus cos we wanted to have enough time to bathe. it was FUN~.

:D

we walked from 6.50 to 7.50am.
SAY THAT WE ROCK! :D

whoa, a full taste of J1 life, totally!
dunno what to say about.. it's just, OKAY. lotsa self entertainment. and I'M LOSING MY VOICE. okay fine, its already half gone. i don even have a sore throat! it's just... gone ):
it sounds super sexy now luh.

abit moody now haha. dunno why, just feel boogie woogie.
i just found out that i lost my chem booklet, i lost my gp worksheet, i lost my voice, and i lost... a confirmation.
):
i'm getting so forgetful nowadays.
anyway.

my birthday's coming!! it's coming, it's coming, it's coming!!! (:
but aiyah, i don wanna think too much about it. ltr on if i think too much, and in the end all the get might be just disappointment, so i shall just assume that its just like any other day.

i think i'm super pessimistic today! haha. O level results were okay, i got A2 for my chi so yay i can still continue taking chi lit. and the j1s in nj are crazy lah, 6 pointers, 7 pointers etc.
it was q smooth and neutral for me, cos i had no feeling for chi already, and its only one sub. i think if its a levels, ill turn white and puke or smthg, or *spasms*.

looney gave me a octopus soft toy today(: its really cute!
i christened it a muslim, named Too Too. (at first it was Boo Boo but i thought it sounded... hm, lets just say WEIRD.)
she went around school w me today, wearing my step up white towel on its head. it was a sikh for around 50 minutes though, but the turban thing couldnt stay on so i decided to let it be a muslim(:
so its a halal octopus.
HAHAHA.

i shall make a list of names who gave me bd present, so ill rmb to give them this year too! a few were complaining that i never give them, and they were sulking over the fact that they are nice enough to buy me one this time too HAHAHAHA.
:P

okay! i'm bored. what shall i do? with so many stuff missing. hM.
oh yeah, i was reading horoscopes yesterday, and the website said aqaurians like to have their feet TIED UP, or HELD DOWN.
D:
why! other horoscopes have nice parts like back, lower back, stomach (okay this one maybe not v nice either HAHA), chest hair (HAHAHA) etc.



i'm looking forward to this weekend (:

today, was a.. not bad day lurh. haha.
my second official day with my new timetable!!!

it's q fun in the mysterious way it is, 'cos i dunno who i'll meet in all my classes, like chem and bio, so i'll just go there and PEEK-A-BOO! and HAHAHAHA YOU ARE HERE TOO! lol.

chem was... okay. i had mrs poon, this teacher who sounds q strict (but in the end i heard actualy she act strict only HAHAHA).

maths was not bad! i don mind ms ruby ng. she's q nice. like, abit funny hahahaha. and her teaching style sounds not bad. like, slow and steady, just that we need to come back for makeup lessons too.

GSC was...... okay i wanna drop it definitely, like NOW!!! our teacher is called ho ah sian. and..... yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. he seemed to be like promoting china studies instead of GSC?! but he's definitely not a v good teacher to teach GSC ba... S; well, we'll see! my GSC class only has like 7 students, 1 got GSC by mistake (he wanted H1 china studies initially), 1 who will eventually drop GSC (ME!), 4 no comments, and 1 who's considering dropping it after the lesson (cs!) HAHAAHAHAHA.
sigh. its okay. let's move on.

bio was q okay! hahahaha.
WE WATCHED PORN, from under the microscope.
we played around with microscopes today! like, how to handle them, and stuff.
and we got to look at cancer cells, and there was one which was breast cancer cell HAHAHA and then i was telling fu di its porn HAHAHA. okay lurh. not funny. and he was so excited about getting to see it, like each cancer cell would wear a bra right. HAHAHAHA.

OAC! today... we had some problems.. so we couldnt open up the rockwalls!!!! damn disappointing ): and the turnout for juniors was q saddening too. I'M SAD! ):
we played games, and we had pt, which was like 5 rounds around the track (split up into 1, 2, 2.), and in between each slot we did stuff like pumps, jumping jacks, jackknife crunch etc. and those who came got FREAKED OUT by the pt.. S: i can only say it wasn't v heavy S:
hahaha nvm, physical can train. *optimistic*

i miss my OG!!! ): like, im unable to spend much time w them cos i had to tend to oac booth these few days, these few slackest study days of the year!!!!!!!!???
D:
they are enjoying themselves in a movie theatre now, watching body 19, and i'm here blogging, and getting ready to do hw ): sighs. i guess i don have the luxury of time to join them either.
): drifting, drifting, drifting.



okay. time to go and do work. tired ):

世上最毒的东西是什么？

人心。

世上什么东西心计最重？

人心。

世上什么东西有无边缘的容纳量？

人心。

世上什么东西最神秘？

人心。







人，
还是无知一点
天真一点
即使是自欺欺人
还是会比较好过。

(:

TODAY, I WENT FOR AN HIV/AIDS EXHIBITION AT SMU. for fun. HAHA.
okay lah, cos my acidic friend rozelll was there HAHA!

the first thing i reached there (in a daze), this man with tattoos and ear piercings came to me and asked, "would you like to have a hiv/aids test?"
me: "hur?"
him: "would you like to have a hiv/aids test?"
me: "urhh.. for fun?"
him: "... also.. can.."
me: "oh, okay then!!"

and so i went in. during the test, i just had to dig this thing in my mouth, let it collect my saliva/whatever cells and then put it in some chemical to react.
in the end.. my results was........



NEGATIVE! HAHAHAHA. okay la, i got that chop when i was walking through the exhibition. quite scary, cos i was alone! they made the whole exhibition like a typical cambodia house, like with wooden boards and stuff, and the doors of each room are curtains only, so everywhere was like whoaw, FLOWY.

and somehow, they got creative mp3s to guide you through the journey like the national museum like that hahahah. quite cool.
and so i found rozell at the last track, and we chatted abit.
(:

i really wan an acidian outing, but nobody responds ):
sighs. okay. but today was a happy day (:

i was mistaken as an aids patient btw. on the mrt. by an old man.
him: *looks at me up and down disapprovingly* "you took the blood test today?"
me: "hur?"
him: "for aids"
me: "oh er.. it was actually an exhibition on aids, the chop *indicates the red positive sign defensively* is just for fun."
him: "hiv is not aids you know, hiv becomes aids after a few years, ..... transmitted through sex.... if aids spread around it will be the end of the world..." ETC. ETC. ETC.
me: "."

oh my gosh. and the email said what, get to experience how its like to be an aids patient, did it meant by this way? HAHAHAHA.

okay lah. but super entertaining. i was super amused.
:D

time to find someone who has a chem ws! for me to photocopy tml (:
cca frenzy D: